He just wanted to hear my Uncertainty…

Recently, I was in the middle of making a life altering decision and all my friend could do was question me, none of which I could truthfully answer.

But, I’d play this game.

We go back and forth for at least ten minutes, most of which I managed to give good answers without much thought.

Finally, tired, I admitted hesitantly, “You know what, I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m going to do.”

And then, he said his goodbye like this, “I just wanted you to admit that you don’t have all the answers.”

At first, his words were shocking to me,

I thought of them, as I walked the long green mile…

He may never see me again and this is how he chose to say goodbye.

Sometimes I believe we all need some one to say, “Hey!! I know you see me walk in with my head held high and my chest out, and you know I got that smile, and yeah, yeah I can talk a room full of people into applause. I know it seems like I have it all together, but I’m just like you. I have doubts and uncertainties too.

That day, I didn’t need that, I needed to be that.

So as I walked the green mile for the last time, unsure where my decision would lead me,

I said my goodbyes;

And it’s at that moment I realized that I was uncomfortable, and most importantly I admitted that I didn’t have it all together.

First to myself, then to my friend.

I needed to hear it.

Now where do I go from here…

P.S. I believe that it’s okay to have uncertainties, we all have them, but with them I believe that it’s up to us to figure out how to overcome them. And some times those uncertainties just mean we need to learn something new or take some ones advice.

Sincerely,

Learning everyday

Chef d’ oeuvre

Classic
Elegant
Optimist
hands reading numbers suspending over distant circles

Worthy
Invigorating
Treasure
hovering winds breathing on steady walls

Passionate
Adaptable
Woman
once racing thoughts eased by the perfection of time

Radiant
Irreplaceable
Delicacy
bowing gracefully

Chic
Vivacious
Clever
evolving delicately like a flower

distinctly

who would expect such elaborate wings from a caterpillar?

KAS

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Worlds Away

These are the days
passing faster now
this is the time
moments matter NOW
growing apart
disconnecting as one

I loved a love and my love was undone.

Questions answered
sources unknown
gathered information
from a place unlike
my own

You and me together was
what I needed
need time
need space
I need God
nothing can replace.

Patterned pacing
where suns don’t exist
living freely
ignoring countless
counterfeits
listening
hearing
strategizing
FOCUS

Chair
Thought
Predestination
which came first
and can my
choices
cause
confusion?

Will I be me
will you know me
love me
where are you now?

Floating in a room
full of floaters
my heart in your hand
inflatable with helium
POP
exploding balloon
indestructible
like
a lion’s roar

What can be compared to a lion’s roar?

Let me be your Hollywood
Lol
I can be your lioness

Forget my ambition
and
know that it will remain
see me for who I am
when
I’m worlds away
body near
close to you
flickering energies unite
kissing palms
but
in thought I’m WORLDS AWAY

It’s Time

Chorus:
I think it’s time for us
to make this thing happen baby
time won’t stop for us
and right now we’re what’s happening

Verse 1:
Where you going babe?
I see you walking away
come back to me
I’ll give you everything you need.
No disrespect baby, but it’s time you see
I’m everything you need and your just the type for me.
For some time now, I’ve been reaching out to you
Over time boy, you’ve been checking for me too.

Chorus:
I think it’s time for us
to make this thing happen babe
time won’t stop for us
and right now we’re what’s happening

Verse 2:
You have your obligations
and I have mine too
but, what’s holding us
with space as free as me and you?
No I won’t guess at us
but in time you’ll see
that me and you
you and me
were meant to be.

Bridge:
I will let you go
I can’t make stops for us
first I must let you know
that I won’t put a stop to love
near or far
won’t change time for us
don’t go
don’t go
time
won’t
stop
for us.

Red Sign

Stopped
gave time a moment
and just
Stopped
unsure how my confusion would
play out
needed a way to clear the clot

Felt all I could
with all I knew
gave it another look
third time anew

Stopped
searching
Stopped
circling old habits
and recognitions.
Life responded
and I
found what I needed when I
Stopped.

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D Elixir

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High
Colored crystals cover
Fixated perimeters
Piercing through shimmering skin.

Your warmth erupts my imagination.
I
Closer closer
No longer
Holding back
Passion
Seeping from pastel pink lips

Embody me once more.
Indulge me once more.
I’ll
Take your hand.
Excite me with your lived story
Dripping sweet

Young
Chocolate
King

Unforgettable
Beast of my night
My light.
Woo me with your heightened words
And untamed thoughts
As we dance into time never ending.

Be electrifying
Spark
Send surge to my heart
Power our hearts.
I’m
Taken taken.

Blazing you in every way.
Captivated by your circulating array.
Love
Be my wings
Entwine
My connecting chemistry
Complement
Be
My
Elixir.