Recently, I was in the middle of making a life altering decision and all my friend could do was question me, none of which I could truthfully answer.
But, I’d play this game.
We go back and forth for at least ten minutes, most of which I managed to give good answers without much thought.
Finally, tired, I admitted hesitantly, “You know what, I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m going to do.”
And then, he said his goodbye like this, “I just wanted you to admit that you don’t have all the answers.”
At first, his words were shocking to me,
I thought of them, as I walked the long green mile…
He may never see me again and this is how he chose to say goodbye.
Sometimes I believe we all need some one to say, “Hey!! I know you see me walk in with my head held high and my chest out, and you know I got that smile, and yeah, yeah I can talk a room full of people into applause. I know it seems like I have it all together, but I’m just like you. I have doubts and uncertainties too.
That day, I didn’t need that, I needed to be that.
So as I walked the green mile for the last time, unsure where my decision would lead me,
I said my goodbyes;
And it’s at that moment I realized that I was uncomfortable, and most importantly I admitted that I didn’t have it all together.
First to myself, then to my friend.
I needed to hear it.
Now where do I go from here…
P.S. I believe that it’s okay to have uncertainties, we all have them, but with them I believe that it’s up to us to figure out how to overcome them. And some times those uncertainties just mean we need to learn something new or take some ones advice.